Sleepless night ! Yesterday I had a Sleepless night in the hospital ! I couldn’t just leave him, his case is getting worse by the hour !
Yes He’s Not getting any better, il 7imd lilah 3la kil 7al , at least now after the very strong anesthetic they give him, finally he’s resting, sleeping ,unconscious He can’t feel me or hear me, although if any loud sound or touch he would make some uncontrollable movements with his head n hands ! of course his hands is tightened to the bed bcoz he’s always trying to take of the Oxygen mask off ! What can i say more ? He’s almost gone ! Bs above all of that i can only say el 7imd lilah 3la kil 7al , at least he’s not in pain any more ! ams he wasnt stable at all !! couldnt breath n couldnt sleep, too tired to talk n too tired to do anything !!! after doing the X-rays they found that he has chest infection ! again !!! i guess this is yy he’s not being able to breath well ! His Lungs function in a 20 to 30% percent rate only !
Doctors are predicting terrified numbers of left life expectancy ! Bs ard w agol kil shy beed allah ! They can give all the numbers they want w bil nihaya kil shy beed rab il 3alameeen ! wa7da eli katba biy9er ,, as much as am in love with him, as much as i adore him ! noo i love him beyond the love n care n everything ! I dont even have the words to describe my love as much as I want him to rest ! I cant stand see him suffer anymore !! AM not gonna be selfish anymore n I’m not gonna ask for much, just ya rabbi ray7a w 5afif 3aleh !!
w e7na … e7na malna 2ila rab il 3almeen mn b3dah ! ra7mita wsa3at kil shy fi hal dinya w akeed ohwa ar7m 3alena
w again as he always said ” el 7amd lilah 2alathi la yo7md 3la makroh siwah ” !!